Wake Up
One dream that made an impact on me, and it haunts me ever since. I was dreaming that I was running in a hurdles race around a stadium, leaping over one after another of these obstacles. The hurdles were so high, maybe ten feet tall. I was jumping over them with such an amazement and joy that I could do that.
And then my sister came by, and asked me what I was doing. I wanted to show her, I said “Look, look!" And then I couldn’t jump. It was all gone. I could hardly move.
The dream was so clear and colourful, it was hard to forget it. I was thinking what could that mean? A friend interpreted it as a hidden fear of my sister and a feeling of inadequacy in relation to her, but I completely rejected it. My own interpretation and a feeling about the dream was that I may have anxiety about performance. When I was doing it alone it was so easy, but as soon I had to show it to someone I froze. (I realize, too, that dreams have to be interpreted in context of what went on the day before, for example, having had contact with my sister, or having had to perform at the music conservatory). The other explanation that I had, was that it may be that my brain is my biggest enemy. I can do things without thinking about it, as soon as I am conscious of doing it, I find all kinds of difficulties. Which is true about me, I am very critical about myself, always find reasons why I can’t do something, I am not good enough.
And then my sister came by, and asked me what I was doing. I wanted to show her, I said “Look, look!" And then I couldn’t jump. It was all gone. I could hardly move.
The dream was so clear and colourful, it was hard to forget it. I was thinking what could that mean? A friend interpreted it as a hidden fear of my sister and a feeling of inadequacy in relation to her, but I completely rejected it. My own interpretation and a feeling about the dream was that I may have anxiety about performance. When I was doing it alone it was so easy, but as soon I had to show it to someone I froze. (I realize, too, that dreams have to be interpreted in context of what went on the day before, for example, having had contact with my sister, or having had to perform at the music conservatory). The other explanation that I had, was that it may be that my brain is my biggest enemy. I can do things without thinking about it, as soon as I am conscious of doing it, I find all kinds of difficulties. Which is true about me, I am very critical about myself, always find reasons why I can’t do something, I am not good enough.
posted by Ineta at 7:22 PM
5 Comments:
Fear only fear itself. Let's actually venture into your mind this time, and examine your Angst. Let's surmise that your fear isn't based on your fictitious innate subling inferiority complex, rather, your ability to live up to her high expectations of you. Or... maybe... your sister might actually just represent your family - in your opinion, do they perceive your goals and ambitions as substandard to your potential?
Maybe it had no meaning. Maybe you were just in the moments. Maybe you are good enough. Maybe what counts are the joy, the feeling of flying and the wonderful colors.
Ineta I guess that I can't explain your dream, for me is too hard to remember my dreams, but you gave me an excelent ideia... The next time when I wake up in the morning or during the night I'll go to the computer and write it... and I won't forget anymore... So we can share and compare our dreams and try to find a real explanation for them... Maybe there is no explanation in this world . But the most important is... Ineta stay with God and have a nice day.
Ineta,
You have done a fabulous job of providing pictures from Lithuania and its broad brush of history in your other part.
Keep dreaming and discovering new horizons for a person without dreams is nothing but a spec of dirt in time
To Anonymous,
Thank you so much for your comment! I really appreciate your kind words.
Unfortunately, I don't think I did a decent job with this blog. I wish I would have made it more cohesive and comprehensive, alas, I don't have time and apparently, I am not as articulate as I would wish to be. Nevertheless, I am most grateful for your visit and your gracious comment.
Sincerely,
Ineta
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